ive watched grown ass men lie cheat steal act fake just to be apart. i watched a dude talk so bad about a person in my face then switch up for the public. how can you live with yourself knowing everything you are is phony. dick riding is real and ive noticed it. theres ppl who support or fans then there is dick riders.. dick riders are those who jump on a band wagon when the team or person seems to be winning or making moves soon as someone else has something better they move on to that person and the cycle continues thats dick riding.. being a fan is not dick riding being a phony fan is however.
Sometimes.. I think about just quitting. I cant even lie. Sometimes when you try your hardest and they dont notice nothing but the bias stuff that is out, you really get this feeling of trying less, being careless and not saying fuck it. Lord knows how much time and patience it takes to do what I do everyday. Blogs only want money, bloggers only want the norm. So when you give em that they still hate you. I dont want pity nor do I make excuses for myself. Just sometimes the time and effort when its ignored seems worthless. Im young they say be patient but fuck that my daughter needs to be taken care of. Sometimes I just wanna walk in a record label and demand them to fire everyone they just signed that sounds the same or really dot deserve it but who am I to tell them what they deserve. lol